Who doesn't want to look good naked?
Yesterday was the most movement my body has gotten in the last four months. During those four months I mostly sat on the couch surfing the web. Two weeks ago I flew to Massachusetts to stay with my sister for a month. During that time I have biked to the laundromat, grocery store, subway line, and town mall, all within a mile or less. That is to say, I've gotten very little exercise lately.
I have used yoga as an exercise (and meditation practice) for the past few years, practicing pretty consistently, but I don't see it as an effective way to get that strong core I've always wanted - the six pack, or something that closely resembles it.
So yesterday was my first time at the gym (ever), and I took a 45-min. kickboxing class. It was fun, almost like dancing, and it definitely kicked my butt. This morning I woke up pretty sore. Oh, and I also did the 15 minute "Ab Blast" class; it hurt so bad! But the entire time, I thought, "I don't want to be a couch potato anymore! I also want a rockin' body!"
Today I wanted to go to the class called "Total Conditioning" but missed it, so I went to another "Ab Blast" session a little late and followed up with a Zumba class (Latin dancing). The first class was so painful I couldn't get through the entire thing. I didn't know which was better: mimicking the teacher and half-assing the pose but not stopping, or doing the pose like it should be done but resting in-between that and the next one. I did the first way. It still hurt.
I found myself losing motivation during my second-ever "Ab Blast" class. I was gung-ho the first time which is understandable considering it was my first attempt at exercising in four months (I'm so ashamed, and now paying for it). But now that I'm back to a more normal weight, and it doesn't feel uncomfortable when I move, I'm wondering what is going to motivate me to push myself hard in class.
I've been pretty lean my entire life, and got incredibly so when I was into juice fasting and eating raw foods about a year ago. That combined with yoga was a recipe for a very skinny person. The past few months were emotionally hard, and I coped by eating a lot of junk food. Firstly, I'm not someone who is big on junk food, so eating copious amounts of it led me to gain some weight. It's the most I've ever weighed, and I came at 135 lbs (5'5"). I have a very small figure, so that's a lot for me (petite and of Asian descent). I felt incredibly uncomfortable in my own skin, or should I say, my own fat. I couldn't move and not feel the extra layers of padding covering me. I felt downright disgusting. Not only because I had gained some extra weight, but because of the horrible things I had been putting in to my system.
I couldn't not do something about it; it was just too unbearable. So a couple weeks ago I started eating less-than-reasonable amounts. I also decided to cut all animal products out of my diet (mostly for ethical reasons, but also because they have high fat content). I've always been conscious of what I put into my body, but for two months (Steptember, November) I was in complete denial that eating **** and not moving would effect my well-being. Well, it did. I got pudgy, felt really poorly about myself, and neglected taking care of myself.
I finally convinced my older sister to let me get a gym membership, and am very happy to have gone every day since then. Now I am wondering how much exercising is too much, and also what to consume to get the body I desire.
I want to get that awesome body without having weight training and working out take over my life. Perhaps in the beginning stages it might be more on my mind, but I would eventually like to get to a place where I hit the gym a couple times a week to maintain a toned and fit body, knowing what exercises are right for specific muscle groups and such. I want to eat right but look great. I don't want to monitor everything I eat. Sometimes I think, "if I want that last workout to have mattered, do I have to go drink a protein shake now?" But that's not what I want to do - I don't want to go out and buy a bunch of supplements (plus, that powder kind of questionable to me... unless it's like, hemp powder).
Now I'm back to a normal weight and feel comfortable, but am getting wondering how much further I am willing to take this new approach to life. Up until now I never thought about incorporating "the gym" into my life, but now I think that I could achieve a really awesome body with a little more work. I just don't want to push myself so hard that it becomes an obsession. I also don't want to look like a body-builder, which I'm kind of afraid of. But if that requires tons of time at the gym, I'm not worried about it.
How do people define self-discipline in the workout world? Is it how often you push yourself during each session? Is it feeling the muscle you want to tone burn during class? Is it going to the gym every day?
Let's see where this new lease on life will take me. With a proper, balanced diet, and dedication to achieving a toned body (more endurance is SO desirable!), where can I go wrong?
If you've made it this far, I'm guessing you identify with some of the things I have said or have answers to my questions. You might as well leave some feedback to either encourage me or answer some of my questions. Any recommendations? Have you gone through a major lifestyle change? Anything is appreciated.
(In the pictures of my only album, I think I am about 125 lbs. I'm 5'5")